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A Memory Of Angst

by NVRVD

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    NVRVD´s third Album "A Memory Of Angst" released in August 2011

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1.
Numbers 01:47
2.
Monolith 01:24
Who pays the bills for progressing solutions? Pollutes the sea with a lethal fusion? Fluid death converts again, oceans into biocaust Black clouds, dark holes, grim monolith Poison on the waves Drowned in gold, in search for bliss Drenched in abyss` toxic kiss Blowing out hypocrisy Take a bath in biocide Black clouds, dark holes, grim monolith Poison on the waves Drowned in gold, in search for bliss Drenched in abyss` toxic kiss Biocide Biocaust
3.
Vultures 03:32
Like an umbrage, like an outline They´re watching your back! Watching your back! Like a smooth hint, like a bleak hunch They encircle you! Encircle me! I´m the scapegoat, you´re the remote Perdition to come! Perdition to come! Wings getting closer, the carnage is near Stand, rise, fall My only perspective They´re craving for my bones and flesh Creep, drown, crawl Is to suffer once more My body rots, I can´t hide the smell Bleed, soak, wet Unpromising ways to choose now My paper skin is slit by claws Rot, roam, fade For my sake I´ll stay in place Let´s start the carnage, the bloodlust now! Claws cutting deep in dying bodies Beaks ripping out pieces of living flesh Vultures - Collapse Like an umbrage, like an outline They´re watching your back! Watching your back! Like a smooth hint, like a bleak hunch They encircle you! encircle me! I´m the scapegoat, you´re the remote Perdition to come! Perdition to come! Wings getting closer, the carnage is here Wings drawn in crimson Circles of silence surround the victim Lying in ambush Up in the sky, to dart for their prey And I listen to your everyday bullshit On and on And everyday I wish you´d fade away One by one I don´t accept what you preach I don´t accept what you preach I don´t accept what you preach I don´t accept what you preach
4.
The Earth 03:28
Chaos has come, order is gone Doubtless Trample the weak, hurdle the dead Nothing to regret Sworn to the core, butcher that whore Planet sent to death Feeling the stitch, missing the itch Seeds have been spread The Tempest, the wrong quest A fist to the chest The zodiac, the black flag A stab in your back The scapegoat for remote A foot to your throat A single race from inner space A brick to your face The earth, the earth, the earth... It´s all happening to the earth.... It´s the earth It´s the earth Time for redemption, to trample the bitter Slow down the cure, hasten the end Scornful Destroy, erase, improve today Life was swept away Be here now! This is where it starts When all is said and done When all our wealth is gone Be here now! It´s the final episode This is the end Of the staining Of the injustice And the bleeding It´s the earth It´s the earth An aeon collapses, an orb turns to ashes
5.
John Merrick 03:16
It´s true my form is something odd. But blaming me is blaming God; Could I create myself anew, I would not fail in pleasing you. If I could reach from pole to pole,  Or grasp the ocean with a span, I would be measured by the soul, The mind's the standard of the man Begging for release Struggle has increased Searching for bliss Lost in this blankness Doomed to the mist Condemned to this bleakness I stand alone, my life is a fraud. My form is nothing to applaud. If I would leave this world today, Life wouldn´t change in any way If I could touch the sky above, Or ask my dearest friend´s advice. I´m yearning for a genuine love, To catch the sight of sparkling eyes Begging for release Struggle has increased Searching for bliss Lost in this blankness Doomed to the mist Condemned to this bleakness I laugh at your plans, I don´t give a shit on your rules My mind is my resort I spit on your views, I never looked up to your God My obvious flaw It´s true my form is something odd, But blaming me is blaming God! What do think is differing us? The body, the blood or the mind? You pissed on that gift; the burden of life Show me a person that is living right Living right For your daily starring, Like vultures in trees
6.
Escape The I 04:48
I´m in grief about myself, I´m a liar (escape) No relief to soothe myself, I´m a mourner (the I) I´m a liar I´m a mourner Well, here I go again trying not to get lost in plurality I mean, it´s not relevant which way I choose And I still don´t get the point, when they tell me: "One day you´ll understand!" Here I am still waiting for relief and wisdom So I get off from this place that´s feeling abhorrent A place full of grief pain and lies I´m in grief about myself, I´m a liar (escape) No relief to soothe myself, I´m a mourner (the I) I´m a liar I´m a mourner Fuck tomorrow, here it ends No way to go any further, no way to stay in place And fuck the here and now It has nothing good for me anymore who told you "what´s the use anyhow!"? I´ll stick with those who miss their daily chore And what´s your secret? You´re going through this day by day Leave me alone, get away, I´m fine I´m out of step and fuck you all I walk alone, alone, alone... I seek  void, I´ve missed the Life I carry all the weight, the weight Now come on and go this way Down Down I face the bitter truth, known as reality I am just on my own, these roots remain the same There´s no despair: like a compass found in no-man´s-land I choose to continue  this journey led by my own traces
7.
Inhale once, exhale twice Vanquish your bedlam mind   Pale with deafening silence, You´re gazing into space The few moments of brilliance, Are null and void today Fending for yourself now, You dwell on scattert thoughts You´re longing for remission You´re screaming to be heard You fell in love with blankness And you enjoy this perpetual silence You gave up before the first steps were made This is  For the cowards For the timid For the bastard We´re watching your back For the scapegoats  For the outvoted For the haunted We´re equally fucked  Right in front, there´s a land, You won´t find, cause you´re blind Close your eyes and watch it burn, This life won´t wait, it´s your turn Blend mind and matter, Cause you have to act as one Detach all your power, From a sight thats almost gone Blend mind and matter Your last chance to act as one Focus all your power A new life, a world to come Right in front There´s a land Life won´t wait Take this hand
8.
Illusions 02:12
9.
The Surface 02:59
Don´t ask for my name, it´s nothing important It´s nothing you should know about Don´t ask about names, feelings and future And things we´ve forgotten somehow You´re still around, you´re holding this wreck; like an alert mind And people are glad that they live This is where it starts It is straight from a heart With this thorn of bitternes, the clash will tear this soul apart Stop asking for reasons, for fact and for fiction And things we lost sight of somehow You´re still around, but your eyes have just seen the surface Do you think you´re up to the core? Right down below There´s a fragile heart For the bitterness of my live, we tear that soul apart It´s a grain thrown in the sandbox It´s the limited realm of reason It´s like grasping the flesh of the paradox Hear my words of treason
10.
The Core 02:57
When I grieved about cause and cure I suffered from harm and loss My mind was clouded, I was for sure It was a sight to behold for me But habit eclipsed reason And affect drove intellect But as soon I awake again The fiction becomes a fact This phobia will take it all For the feeling, the flesh and the human void It needs a point where it starts where it starts The plague leaves you unconscious Spreads once more from the core A deadly truth keeps rising A truth hard to ignore You´re caught up in this punishment There´s a sky lurking deep from above So trample down this world; your own path You´re caught up in this punishment There´s a sea lurking deep from below So trample down this world; it´s your show I suffered from harm and loss My mind was clouded, I was for sure It was a sight to behold for me But habit eclipsed reason And affect drove intellect But as soon I awake again The vision becomes a fact Affect The plague infests your body Dissolves it from the core A daily hero´s wisdom Still too hard to ignore
11.
Son Of Man 01:49
I am the: Son of man - Stellar race Anti zen - Counter space Exalted blazing sun My own god - The new dawn Blessed are all the angry! Hail to all the sick! Worship all the maniacs! Anti whiz Death to all your saints! Forward! we have to move A truth known to the fatalists Backward! we have to prove Deeper meanings don´t exist The burden is our power The heaviest matter known to man My mind is attaining knowledge Flickering notions we can´t ban Face my mindset Curse the power I am the: Son of man - Stellar race Anti zen - Counter space I am the counter qi I am the counter me
12.
Wipe Out 01:55
Harvesting mother earth for affluence Nourishing abundance for disbalance Clear the woodland, sift the ocean Blow up mountains, pollute the soil We flay the skin of mother earth We´re drilling deeper, we shed her blood This is your chosen way of no return! We fuck ourselves! Repent every single action She will wipe out every life Can you feel her raging power? Mountain collapse and oceans rise She will reclaim what was taken She will wipe out every life She will wipe out every life! She will moan for every life! She needs to live! We sink this ship! With endless consumption With scornful defiance Let´s face our reaction Don´t panic, stay relaxed There´s plenty of time To mess up this world
13.
Pool Of Sick 01:40
She is everything that makes me rage All her habits and her daily grind Let´s hear the fanfares Their sound echoes like a spatter in my mind She´s a home but an abandoned place A seduction and a rotting grace Her mouth spreads a liquid bane Ringworms ´n´ rats that leave you in blank Pestilent pool of sick Call it pest, call it tick Parasitic sphere of shit All your life - you´ll stay in place, let´s get ready to die All this time - you will get lost in your relevant life Pestilent pool of sick Sickening world of shit The city rots Curse this place There´s no air There´s no space Let them reap What they sow
14.
My mind is a clockwork My thoughts are my saints My brain is consuming but doesn´t need any fuel My alter ego, it´s wise and divine We share the seconds, but we don´t need consciousness I´m alone, paralyzed Grieve about loss of time Reason stops intellect Habit drives the affect All these flicks wane Perpetual seconds, lasting a lifetime A memory of angst copies the copy All these flicks, one by one, Can´t be fixed, can´t be Done by one (I´m sick of this life) Fixed by none (Other than me) Damn! My mind is a clockwork My thoughts are my saints My brain is consuming but doesn´t need any fuel I´m alone, a piece of shit On my own, can´t deal with it An afterbirth of rotten words I feel obsessed by my disgust All these flicks, one by one, Can´t be fixed, can´t be Done by one (I´m sick of this life) Fixed by none (Other than me) Damn!
15.
Shithead 01:35
The unknown feeling is stepping once more on the head But since you´re not longer here, there´s nothing for me to regret We had our breaktime without crossing borders Condemned to mistakes without giving orders There´s not much left in here But I don´t give a fuck what´s behind my fears Nothing to worry about, to feel sorry about We trample the bitter without any doubt Let´s beat up these shitheads  One by one We will make them suffer Our time has come Let them see that our time has come Make them see that their time is gone Now  The unknown feeling is slipping once more through my head But since we´re no longer here, I put my thoughts once more to bed We had a black time without seeking further condemned to mistakes and sworn to our murder There´s nothing left in here But I don´t give a fuck what´s behind my fears Nothing to worry about, to feel sorry about We trample the bitter without any doubt Let´s beat up these shitheads  One by one We will make them suffer Our time has come
16.
Get up, start living, you have no time to waste! You made the wrong decisions, now bear the bitter sweet taste Cause there´s no room to hide and there is no escape Now get in line, get in the ring before it´s too late What is your choice? Come here, get close, don´t ask for time Don´t look back at your former life What´s your choice? Where do you go from here? Whats your defeat? Where do you turn to hide away Guilty in limb avoids the dream We have awoken from our sleep Switch off the bulb, turn on the hiss Drowned into bleach in search for bliss Now! - don´t you get off Now! - don´t you give up Hope! - don´t you give up Love! Burning bright - a blazing lie enlightens the mind It disapears - the now is lost between shit and shine Discomfiture - I walk in times which are not mine Overgrown - a future lost between shit and shine For the love of something odd At least some of them call it God But we exist in the here and now I won´t stick to your feigned vow For your sake, there´re illusions to drown in But some are waiting for death as release Let´s waste our time and let´s praise the whore Let´s do the sin of thinking free For the free mind, for the godless For the lost ones, for the hopeless For the haunted, for the homeless To those who will conquer the free will For the free mind, for the godless For the lost ones, for the hopeless For the haunted, for the homeless This is for you I don´t agree with your construct of moral But maybe I´m not lost I´m not lost

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