A Memory Of Angst

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released August 1, 2011

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Track Name: Monolith
Who pays the bills for progressing solutions?
Pollutes the sea with a lethal fusion?
Fluid death converts again, oceans into biocaust

Black clouds, dark holes, grim monolith
Poison on the waves

Drowned in gold, in search for bliss
Drenched in abyss` toxic kiss

Blowing out hypocrisy
Take a bath in biocide

Black clouds, dark holes, grim monolith
Poison on the waves

Drowned in gold, in search for bliss
Drenched in abyss` toxic kiss

Biocide

Biocaust
Track Name: Vultures
Like an umbrage, like an outline
They´re watching your back! Watching your back!
Like a smooth hint, like a bleak hunch
They encircle you! Encircle me!
I´m the scapegoat, you´re the remote
Perdition to come! Perdition to come!
Wings getting closer, the carnage is near


Stand, rise, fall
My only perspective
They´re craving for my bones and flesh

Creep, drown, crawl
Is to suffer once more
My body rots, I can´t hide the smell

Bleed, soak, wet
Unpromising ways to choose now
My paper skin is slit by claws

Rot, roam, fade
For my sake I´ll stay in place
Let´s start the carnage, the bloodlust now!

Claws cutting deep in dying bodies
Beaks ripping out pieces of living flesh

Vultures - Collapse

Like an umbrage, like an outline
They´re watching your back! Watching your back!
Like a smooth hint, like a bleak hunch
They encircle you! encircle me!
I´m the scapegoat, you´re the remote
Perdition to come! Perdition to come!
Wings getting closer, the carnage is here

Wings drawn in crimson
Circles of silence surround the victim
Lying in ambush
Up in the sky, to dart for their prey

And I listen to your everyday bullshit
On and on
And everyday I wish you´d fade away
One by one

I don´t accept what you preach
I don´t accept what you preach
I don´t accept what you preach
I don´t accept what you preach
Track Name: The Earth
Chaos has come, order is gone
Doubtless
Trample the weak, hurdle the dead
Nothing to regret
Sworn to the core, butcher that whore
Planet sent to death
Feeling the stitch, missing the itch
Seeds have been spread


The Tempest, the wrong quest
A fist to the chest
The zodiac, the black flag
A stab in your back
The scapegoat for remote
A foot to your throat
A single race from inner space
A brick to your face

The earth, the earth, the earth...
It´s all happening to the earth....

It´s the earth
It´s the earth
Time for redemption, to trample the bitter

Slow down the cure, hasten the end
Scornful
Destroy, erase, improve today
Life was swept away

Be here now!
This is where it starts
When all is said and done
When all our wealth is gone

Be here now!
It´s the final episode
This is the end
Of the staining
Of the injustice
And the bleeding

It´s the earth
It´s the earth
An aeon collapses, an orb turns to ashes
Track Name: John Merrick
It´s true my form is something odd.
But blaming me is blaming God;
Could I create myself anew,
I would not fail in pleasing you.
If I could reach from pole to pole, 
Or grasp the ocean with a span,
I would be measured by the soul,
The mind's the standard of the man

Begging for release
Struggle has increased

Searching for bliss
Lost in this blankness
Doomed to the mist
Condemned to this bleakness

I stand alone, my life is a fraud.
My form is nothing to applaud.
If I would leave this world today,
Life wouldn´t change in any way

If I could touch the sky above,
Or ask my dearest friend´s advice.
I´m yearning for a genuine love,
To catch the sight of sparkling eyes

Begging for release
Struggle has increased

Searching for bliss
Lost in this blankness
Doomed to the mist
Condemned to this bleakness

I laugh at your plans, I don´t give a shit on your rules
My mind is my resort

I spit on your views, I never looked up to your God
My obvious flaw

It´s true my form is something odd,
But blaming me is blaming God!

What do think is differing us?
The body, the blood or the mind?
You pissed on that gift; the burden of life
Show me a person that is living right

Living right

For your daily starring,
Like vultures in trees
Track Name: Escape The I
I´m in grief about myself, I´m a liar (escape)
No relief to soothe myself, I´m a mourner (the I)
I´m a liar
I´m a mourner

Well, here I go again trying not to get lost in plurality
I mean, it´s not relevant which way I choose
And I still don´t get the point, when they tell me:
"One day you´ll understand!"
Here I am still waiting for relief and wisdom
So I get off from this place that´s feeling abhorrent
A place full of grief pain and lies

I´m in grief about myself, I´m a liar (escape)
No relief to soothe myself, I´m a mourner (the I)
I´m a liar
I´m a mourner

Fuck tomorrow, here it ends
No way to go any further, no way to stay in place
And fuck the here and now
It has nothing good for me anymore
who told you "what´s the use anyhow!"?
I´ll stick with those who miss their daily chore
And what´s your secret?
You´re going through this day by day
Leave me alone, get away, I´m fine
I´m out of step and fuck you all

I walk alone, alone, alone...
I seek  void, I´ve missed the Life
I carry all the weight, the weight
Now come on and go this way
Down
Down

I face the bitter truth, known as reality
I am just on my own, these roots remain the same
There´s no despair: like a compass found in no-man´s-land
I choose to continue  this journey led by my own traces
Track Name: Null And Void
Inhale once, exhale twice
Vanquish your bedlam mind
 
Pale with deafening silence,
You´re gazing into space
The few moments of brilliance,
Are null and void today

Fending for yourself now,
You dwell on scattert thoughts
You´re longing for remission
You´re screaming to be heard

You fell in love with blankness
And you enjoy this perpetual silence
You gave up before the first steps were made

This is 
For the cowards
For the timid
For the bastard
We´re watching your back

For the scapegoats 
For the outvoted
For the haunted
We´re equally fucked 

Right in front, there´s a land,
You won´t find, cause you´re blind
Close your eyes and watch it burn,
This life won´t wait, it´s your turn

Blend mind and matter,
Cause you have to act as one
Detach all your power,
From a sight thats almost gone

Blend mind and matter
Your last chance to act as one
Focus all your power
A new life, a world to come

Right in front
There´s a land
Life won´t wait
Take this hand
Track Name: The Surface
Don´t ask for my name, it´s nothing important
It´s nothing you should know about
Don´t ask about names, feelings and future
And things we´ve forgotten somehow
You´re still around, you´re holding this wreck; like an alert mind
And people are glad that they live

This is where it starts
It is straight from a heart
With this thorn of bitternes, the clash will tear this soul apart

Stop asking for reasons, for fact and for fiction
And things we lost sight of somehow
You´re still around, but your eyes have just seen the surface
Do you think you´re up to the core?

Right down below
There´s a fragile heart
For the bitterness of my live, we tear that soul apart

It´s a grain thrown in the sandbox
It´s the limited realm of reason
It´s like grasping the flesh of the paradox
Hear my words of treason
Track Name: The Core
When I grieved about cause and cure
I suffered from harm and loss
My mind was clouded, I was for sure
It was a sight to behold for me
But habit eclipsed reason
And affect drove intellect
But as soon I awake again
The fiction becomes a fact

This phobia will take it all
For the feeling, the flesh and the human void
It needs a point where it starts
where it starts

The plague leaves you unconscious
Spreads once more from the core
A deadly truth keeps rising
A truth hard to ignore

You´re caught up in this punishment
There´s a sky lurking deep from above
So trample down this world; your own path

You´re caught up in this punishment
There´s a sea lurking deep from below
So trample down this world; it´s your show

I suffered from harm and loss
My mind was clouded, I was for sure
It was a sight to behold for me
But habit eclipsed reason
And affect drove intellect
But as soon I awake again
The vision becomes a fact
Affect

The plague infests your body
Dissolves it from the core
A daily hero´s wisdom
Still too hard to ignore
Track Name: Son Of Man
I am the:
Son of man - Stellar race
Anti zen - Counter space
Exalted blazing sun
My own god - The new dawn

Blessed are all the angry!
Hail to all the sick!
Worship all the maniacs! Anti whiz
Death to all your saints!

Forward! we have to move
A truth known to the fatalists

Backward! we have to prove
Deeper meanings don´t exist

The burden is our power
The heaviest matter known to man

My mind is attaining knowledge
Flickering notions we can´t ban

Face my mindset
Curse the power

I am the:
Son of man - Stellar race
Anti zen - Counter space

I am the counter qi
I am the counter me
Track Name: Wipe Out
Harvesting mother earth for affluence
Nourishing abundance for disbalance

Clear the woodland, sift the ocean
Blow up mountains, pollute the soil
We flay the skin of mother earth
We´re drilling deeper, we shed her blood

This is your chosen way of no return!
We fuck ourselves!

Repent every single action
She will wipe out every life

Can you feel her raging power?
Mountain collapse and oceans rise
She will reclaim what was taken
She will wipe out every life

She will wipe out every life!
She will moan for every life!

She needs to live! We sink this ship!

With endless consumption
With scornful defiance

Let´s face our reaction
Don´t panic, stay relaxed
There´s plenty of time
To mess up this world
Track Name: Pool Of Sick
She is everything that makes me rage
All her habits and her daily grind
Let´s hear the fanfares
Their sound echoes like a spatter in my mind
She´s a home but an abandoned place
A seduction and a rotting grace
Her mouth spreads a liquid bane
Ringworms ´n´ rats that leave you in blank

Pestilent pool of sick
Call it pest, call it tick
Parasitic sphere of shit

All your life - you´ll stay in place, let´s get ready to die
All this time - you will get lost in your relevant life

Pestilent pool of sick
Sickening world of shit

The city rots
Curse this place
There´s no air
There´s no space

Let them reap
What they sow
Track Name: The (E)Idolon
My mind is a clockwork
My thoughts are my saints
My brain is consuming but doesn´t need any fuel
My alter ego, it´s wise and divine
We share the seconds, but we don´t need consciousness

I´m alone, paralyzed
Grieve about loss of time
Reason stops intellect
Habit drives the affect

All these flicks wane

Perpetual seconds, lasting a lifetime
A memory of angst copies the copy

All these flicks, one by one,
Can´t be fixed, can´t be

Done by one
(I´m sick of this life)
Fixed by none
(Other than me)

Damn!

My mind is a clockwork
My thoughts are my saints
My brain is consuming but doesn´t need any fuel

I´m alone, a piece of shit
On my own, can´t deal with it
An afterbirth of rotten words
I feel obsessed by my disgust

All these flicks, one by one,
Can´t be fixed, can´t be

Done by one
(I´m sick of this life)
Fixed by none
(Other than me)

Damn!
Track Name: Shithead
The unknown feeling is stepping once more on the head
But since you´re not longer here, there´s nothing for me to regret
We had our breaktime without crossing borders
Condemned to mistakes without giving orders
There´s not much left in here
But I don´t give a fuck what´s behind my fears

Nothing to worry about, to feel sorry about
We trample the bitter without any doubt
Let´s beat up these shitheads 
One by one
We will make them suffer
Our time has come

Let them see that our time has come
Make them see that their time is gone
Now 

The unknown feeling is slipping once more through my head
But since we´re no longer here, I put my thoughts once more to bed
We had a black time without seeking further
condemned to mistakes and sworn to our murder
There´s nothing left in here
But I don´t give a fuck what´s behind my fears

Nothing to worry about, to feel sorry about
We trample the bitter without any doubt
Let´s beat up these shitheads 
One by one
We will make them suffer
Our time has come
Track Name: The Muttered Oath
Get up, start living, you have no time to waste!
You made the wrong decisions, now bear the bitter sweet taste
Cause there´s no room to hide and there is no escape
Now get in line, get in the ring before it´s too late
What is your choice?
Come here, get close, don´t ask for time
Don´t look back at your former life

What´s your choice?
Where do you go from here?
Whats your defeat?
Where do you turn to hide away

Guilty in limb avoids the dream
We have awoken from our sleep
Switch off the bulb, turn on the hiss
Drowned into bleach in search for bliss

Now! - don´t you get off
Now! - don´t you give up
Hope! - don´t you give up
Love!

Burning bright - a blazing lie enlightens the mind
It disapears - the now is lost between shit and shine
Discomfiture - I walk in times which are not mine
Overgrown - a future lost between shit and shine

For the love of something odd
At least some of them call it God
But we exist in the here and now
I won´t stick to your feigned vow

For your sake, there´re illusions to drown in
But some are waiting for death as release
Let´s waste our time and let´s praise the whore
Let´s do the sin of thinking free

For the free mind, for the godless
For the lost ones, for the hopeless
For the haunted, for the homeless
To those who will conquer the free will

For the free mind, for the godless
For the lost ones, for the hopeless
For the haunted, for the homeless
This is for you


I don´t agree with your construct of moral
But maybe I´m not lost

I´m not lost